Tuesday, March 31, 2009

This is a nice idea I would like to see get off the ground


This is a nice idea, if I had the money and they were selling them currently I would totally buy one....and then once I had the money I'd buy another and so forth until I had no room for more of them.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Bit of a format change

Ok so now that I am back and almost done with Senior Sem. My presentation is on April fools day, someone has a sick, sick sense of humor. But I digress. On sundays from now until....I decide to change it. I will be pulling a tarot card from my deck (Legend The Arthurian Tarot) to see what I need to know for the coming week. This week I pulled the 8 of shields. Amusingly enough I was thinking about pulling a card that discussed this subject.

This card is of Wayland the master craftsman God in British mythology, whose weapons were surpassed my no one, working on crafting a shield. This card is all about working hard but taking pleasure from what you are doing. I am going to be optimistic about my employment possibilities this week.

I have been worrying about finding a job (at this point almost any job would do) for it seems like a very long time. Last week I woke up with this calm contentment and knowlege that everything would work out, and though I am again worrying about it that beautiful voice that is somehow mine but completely not at the same time, full of calm and a slight smile keeps telling me things will be ok and I find that I can't work myself up into a good panic about it as easily as I could before. Its so much harder to hit that one thought that sends me sliding down the spiral. This is the first time I will agree with anyone who says that bleeding from ones vagina brings you closer to the universe. For a long time Mother wasn't in my head, my prayer routine fallen to the wayside, I had battened down the hatches and was waiting for the storm to go away. And now, I think the worst of it has passed over and I can enjoy the thunder storm and the life giving spring rains (I will ignore the hail that i drove through today)

Saturday, March 28, 2009

This isn't that hard

I am reading this article the title being Cruel Irony: Do Renewable Power Plants threaten Thier Surrounding Environment. And the answer: Yes. Because you have to take lots and lots of land to make these wind farms and solar farms and such. Now I have no help for the wind farms they are of debatable good in my opinion me. But it seems to me that there would be little difficulty in putting solar panels on top of all the buildings in a city and maybe all the houses. Of course, this would need some study to see if it didn't blind birds or something with reflection (is there reflection? I'll do research on that at some point). I don't see the necessity of using acres and acres of land if we can just put them on top of buildings. Just cover the fuck out of all the building and house tops and well all be just fine. I feel like they keep doing things the hard way.....is it just me?

Here's that article http://www.sciam.com/blog/60-second-science/post.cfm?id=cruel-irony-do-renewable-power-plan-2009-03-25&sc=CAT_ENRG_20090326

P.S. No heart defects!!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

This is me, reaching back out to the universe

*peeks out of the shell*
Well, there is about a week until the stressful things go away and I give my Senior Seminar presentation and turn in my paper soon after so...things are looking almost like they could get better. Though in all honesty, I'm not sure they will just yet. I've been having health problems galore (all non-life threatening but impressive all the same) my new Doctor is concerned my heart doesn't beat properly so I get to go get a heart ultrasound today and frankly I'm scared. Scared up one side and down the other and ready to cry (not that by now I'm not used to that feeling, me and being on the verge of tears have been best friends for a couple months now).
I read this thing by Susun Weed a few moments ago saying how skin ailments have an emotional component *glares at hands* basically stress = ecxima. Stress....check. excima....check (yeah, again). I'm hoping the boy is right and all this health stupidity will right itself once I'm less stressed out. Now all I have to do is find me something that pays the bills and feeds my cats.

Ok universe, here I am.....please don't do your worst. I am going to work at getting back to daily postings since the cats wake me up really early and I have time to post before class.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Feeling really good, for just this week

Ok, I am on spring break currently so things have been pretty nice. Spent lots of time with the boy, friends from high school (still recovering from that one), did some work in the job hunting, went to see an art museum exhibit on kimonos which was goddamn amazing. Currently life is good. I am thinking about attempting to take up martial arts....again...ish. I talked to my boy's instructor and he assured me we could work around the knee issues easily. His instructor is awesome and made me feel very welcome when i sat in and watched a class, now I just have to get the guts up to join in. The boy keeps saying it will be a good place for me to battle some of my shy issues and he would really like to see me go for it since I want to do it but am a total pansy (I tried to chicken out on going and participating, then I shafted myself out of a car and couldn't go to class anyways) I have no fear of pain, just lots of people I don't know. I decided I want to do this because I need something my brain must focus on as a way to give my brain a break from all the oher things it focuses on, on a daily basis, because I've become rather pathetic and will cry at the least upsetting thing. But I will say it is amazing how just thanking the Gods for the good things you had during the day does definitely help (when I remember to do it). So I leave you with song lyrics from a song I rediscovered amongst my musical collection and my comentary on it. It pretty much sums up my beliefs on life right now.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument (don't want to go to bed grumpy)
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands (yeah, kinda)
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you (so true)
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do (some do better then others)
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem (damn straight they do)
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone (you have to love yourself)
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned (what goes around comes around)
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned(I imagine its true)
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side (mmmhmm)
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye (so very true)

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality (yup)
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy (I've come to realize the truth of this statement very much, so much less drama when everyone is honest)
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul (I don't give one damn about the skin coverings of a person)
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold (doesnt have to be blood related)
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair (fuck yes it is)
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires (oh yeah)

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness (eh, yes and no)
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed (but the being undressed part is so much fun)
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists (They sure as hell don't)
I believe in love surviving death into eternity (its a nice idea if nothing else)

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye